Monday, August 27, 2012

Tomorrow.....

.....will be an end and a beginning.

Tomorrow will mark the end of a season and the beginning of a new one.

I have looked forward to and dreaded this day for a long time.

My baby is now a man and my children are all adults.

Gone are the days of chocolate chip cookies after school, costumes made of construction paper,  tickets being given to home plays, bedtime reading, multiple hugs...per minute, listening to music as instruments are practiced, football games, band concerts, impromptu family game nights, swim partys.

My children now have lives of their own.

This is what we have worked for, my husband and I....to successfully launch our children.  To raise them in a way that when they leave the nest, they love and depend on God and have the confidence and skills to thrive in their new endeavors.

I think we did that.....and it gives me joy I can't express to see it.

But this mama's heart is not ready to fully accept it. 

For a while, I have boasted about how excited we are to be "alone", back to just the two of us....what fun we will have, what freedom we will experience!

But as the house has emptied and gotten more quiet each day, my resolve to be happy has crumbled just a bit and a little fear of the unknown has crept in.....what will my life look like now?  How do you navigate this? 

One thing is for sure.....change is happening, a season is ending.....
....whether I like it or not.

And after a few days of grieving...and maybe evening blubbering....
....I will put on my big girl panties, 
look to God,
and together, with Steve, will discover what this new season has in store for me.


11 comments:

Robin @ Be Still and Know said...

Well said! I think how we face change is just as important as the change itself. You have a great perspective.

We all need to put on our big girl panties and look to God during our difficult times. But it's OK to grieve and blubber a bit to. We are emotional beings and tears are just our way of releasing those pent up emotions!

Blessings for the days and weeks ahead as you rediscover how this new part of your life will fall into place!

R


Mocha with Linda said...

Love this, and following right behind you! Just sent my girl off for her senior year! Gulp!

Big hugs to you!

Judy said...

I will be honest and say that the transition to empty nest has been way, way harder than I ever thought it would be. But maybe moving to a small, small town with no kids had something to do with it. Anyway, I empathize.

StephieAnne said...

My heart is with you Sara. Such a beautiful, bittersweet post. If anyone can glorify God through this transition (and be a light to the rest of us yet to go through it) - it is YOU!

Kim said...

It's definitely not an easy transition for most moms. While we're proud of our kids, and excited for them to "stretch their wings", we're also sad for our loss... the loss of having them near every day.

But it might not be long before your house fills up with the sound of little ones again! :) Praying for this process you're going through to become foster parents.

Lynne said...

Hi Sara,

I think God has a lot more blessings waiting for you yet. Just be still and know He is God....love that song and have been hearing it in my head all week. I pray you find joy in the Lord and what will be...God bless!

Mike said...

In your sad times, think how it would be if they had gone away not following God...

Penny said...

That is a big change, but remember what Godly children you have raised -- and what wonderful grandchildren you'll have in a few years!! =)

Jill from Killeny Glen said...

I am a LONG way from THAT season at this point Sara but find myself LONGING for it at times...I am QUITE sure that I will feel like you do when my time comes.

I am EXCITED about what God has for you in this new season! AND...to think you and Steve will have the house to yourselves!!! Hmmmm. Sounds nice! :)

STILLMAGNOLIA said...

I remember that tomorrow....like it was yesterday...I am praying for you my friend.

momma frans said...

This is precious. And a little sad.
Thanks for being so candid, as always. :-)
Praying for you as you make the transition.