Thursday, February 5, 2015

Thankful Thursday

I'm joining up with Rebecca Jo for Thankful Thursday today...

....I need a little "thankful" to refocus my feelings of depression over my frozen shoulder.  I have taken a few steps back today and am feeling a pity party coming on...


** I am thankful for sunny, beautiful weather!  So much of the country has been snowed in or rained out and it has been simply fantastic here where I live!

** I am thankful for my health.  Though this shoulder is a pain (literally), I have very good health and have not been sick all winter.  I have many friends fighting much, much bigger health I am grateful today for mine.

** I am VERY thankful for my Essential Oils.....a BIG reason why I have not been sick this winter!!   

** I am thankful for interviews and job opportunities that remind me God is still moving us forward and toward that ministry that He has especially for us.

** I am so thankful for technology......for many reasons, but specifically today as technology allowed my son and daughter-in-love to hear their baby's heart beat for the first time!!  I remember that moment so well and my heart is over joyed for them!

** Today, I am thankful for my family, because.....well....mine is simply the greatest!! :)

Feeling better already!  :)

What are you thankful for today?

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Deep thoughts.....

I have been doing a lot of deep thinking lately.

I have tried blogging about it but, the words just don't seem to be coming the way that I want them to.  When I type them, they seem much lighter than the thoughts that are in my head.

So, I think I will just summarize some of those thoughts...

I just finished the book Hardest Peace.
I think it is a book that everyone needs to read.  It is a tough read and I have been mulling over so many things I read.  The author, Kara, is dying of cancer.  Yet, she displays God's grace and the truth of His Word throughout the book.  This quote particularly stuck with me.....

Trusting God when the miracle does not come, when the urgent prayer gets no answer, when there is only darkness--this is the kind of faith God values perhaps most of all.  This is the kind of faith that can be developed and displayed only in the midst of difficult circumstances.  This is the kind of faith that cannot be shaken because it is the result of having been shaken.

This is the kind of faith I am trying to live.  
And the kind of faith I am trying to display in this time of winter.

Isaiah 41:10
Do not fear for I am with you.  Do not be dismayed for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you.  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.


My dad was just here visiting.
 It was really hard to see him leave.  He is 84 and we live states away from each other.  I say goodbye to him, and my mom, each time not knowing when I will see them again.....some times it's only a month, sometimes 6 months and sometimes even a year.  Those times seem to stretch out so long in front of me these days.  And my time with them is precious right now.

At times I wonder why God has us so far away from each other.  Why I can't live closer and be able to see them more often, take care of them and be there for they have always been there for me.  Those are questions I can't answer, but I trust God that He knows what is best and where I am supposed to be.

Psalm 31:14
I trust you Lord.  I say, You are my God.  My times are in your hands.

Isaiah 55:9
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts


I sat yesterday and listened to the news of the young Jordanian man who was murdered by Is*s.
My heart is so broken for his family.  As I struggled to wrap my mind around such evil, a thought slipped into my thinking......God, could this be the way You usher in the end times?  In studying the book of Revelation, you learn that there are a few things that must happen first.....someone must rise up to cause/negotiate "peace" and Israel must rebuild the temple on the Mount of Olives.  I have never been able to picture how that could happen....until today.  As Is*s draws more countries against them, someone will undoubtedly rise to unite those countries to retaliate.  And as Is*s continues on this path, it seems to me that M*slims in general will be drawn into the anger and wrath that Is*s creates.  And I can see someone taking out the mosque currently standing on the Mount of Olives opening the way for the temple to be built.

This may not happen, of course.  But it is the first time that I have been able to see a way it might.  And it has thrown me into some deep thinking and much prayer.


God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure.  So we praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on us who belong to his dear Son.  He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins.  He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding.  God has now revealed to us his mysterious plan regarding Christ, a plan to fulfill his own good pleasure.  And this is the plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ—everything in heaven and on earth  
Ephesians 1:5-10

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Thankful Thursday

My theme word for this year is TRUST

One of the ways that I find helps me to trust God more is by being thankful.....being mindful of the blessings He pours out on me, big or small.

So, today I am joining my friend Rebecca Jo for her Thankful Thursday.  
Link up and join us!

I am so thankful for my 1st grandchild!  
I can't explain it, but I am already so incredibly in love with this baby I have yet to see.  Maybe some of you other grandmas can relate?

I am thankful my niece is in college only a couple of hours away from me.  She is from AZ and so it is a gift to have her here and to be able to spend time with her!  She and her roommate came up this last weekend.......I may have bribed them with food!  :)

One of my very best and dearest friends lives only 45 minutes from me. We met over 20 years ago in Minot, ND where my husband was a pastor and her husband was in the air force.  I am so thankful that God saw fit to place us close together again and I treasure any time I get with her!!

I truly have the best friends.
I thank God daily for each one He has placed in my life.
But He has blessed me with a few that know me and my heart intimately and just know when I need a little cheering up.  

I am thankful for cooking...and so is my husband though for different reasons!  :)
I love to cook.  It brings me joy and it is my stress reliever.  I love taking a handful of items and putting them together to create something beautiful and yummy.  

I have so much to be thankful for!!  
I have committed this year to end each of my days thanking God for the specific blessings of the day. Even on the worst of days, there is something to be thankful for!!

What are you thankful for today?

Friday, January 16, 2015

So, we have some news......

We are going to be grandparents!!!

Jason and Kristen surprised us this weekend with some special T-shirts....

To say we are exited would be an understatement!!

Now to decide on grandparent names....... 

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Thankful Thursday

One way for me to keep my focus on Trusting God this year is to remind myself what I am thankful for....all the blessings He has brought my way and even all the little things.

So, I am going to join my friend Rebecca Jo for her Thankful Thursday each week.   You can join in too if you want!

Today I'm thankful for....

Winter foods!
I love, LOVE soups and stews and I love making them.  this is true comfort food for me!

My "grand puppy"  This sweet dog is the best cuddler ever and I just love having her visit!  Of course I love her parents too! :)

Scripture that I can memorize and store in my heart!!

Gas prices!!
Oh my word, I filled up my car AND my husband's car for the price it usually costs to just fill mine!!!  

There are so many more things, but I will save them for next week!

What are you thankful for today?

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

2015 in a word...

Well, 2014 has come and gone.

That makes me very happy for two very different reasons.  

One because, well, on the outside it wasn't a stellar year for us.  It was a very hard year and I am glad to see it go.  And two, because on the inside it was an amazing year where God used my circumstances to mold and shape me into more of what He wants me to be.  Where He proved to my heart that He is my Jehovah provider....and I can't wait to see what He has for me in 2015.

I have been working on a post about our Christmas, but I just can't seem to find the words to describe how special it was.  It did not turn out at all like I had planned, it was crazy and sometimes hard...
..and yet it was so....perfect. 

Maybe it's just something I need to keep in my heart to ponder and remember.

So, on to 2015.

I am not one to make resolutions and last year I joined others in my on-line community and started looking for one word that God wanted me to think on through out the year. 

This year, the word I'm choosing is TRUST.

I have never in my life been in a situation where I have had to trust God like I am now.  A complete trust. Everything that I felt I could control has been ripped out of my hands over the last year and now I find myself in a place where all I have is my trust in God.  Trust that He has a plan and that He knows what is best for me.  Trust that I don't have to figure out what He is doing but just follow Him (thanks for that reminder Lisa)  Trust that He is going to take care of me and not waste one moment of what I am going through.  


I have also felt the Holy Spirit leading me this year to memorize 24 verses that relate to TRUST.  This is daunting for me....I am not good at memorizing at all.  But I know this is something I am supposed to do.  So I am joining Beth Moore in her Siesta Memory Scripture Team 2015.  

This first verse I chose is:

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.  Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.  Plans to give you hope and a future.  Jeremiah 29:11

I am currently working on finding the other 11 verses that the Lord wants me to memorize this year.  Do you have a favorite verse on TRUST?

So, I start 2015 trusting....

* God in my circumstances!
* that when I doubt, He will remind me to trust!
* He has a plan, though I can't see it!
* that right now I am exactly where I am supposed to be!
* that I'll be able to memorize 24 verses!

And trusting that come 2016, 
I will know my God deeper than ever before.
And because of my trust in Him, I will be more like Him and right where He wants me.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Christmas Eve

Happy Christmas Eve!

It feels strange to type that because it doesn't feel like Christmas Eve.

Normally, I would be up early baking and getting the food ready for our family Christmas Eve dinner.  I might be helping prepare things for our church service tonight.  And I would be drinking coffee from my Christmas mugs! :)

However, this year it's all been knocked out of wack.

I'm sitting here this morning drinking my coffee in my daughter's apartment...trying to be quiet so she can get the sleep she has been lacking....trying to decide when to wake her up for her next pain meds.   I am separated from the rest of my family.  
I don't have a church to help get ready.  
Things just aren't the way I would have planned.

I have been sitting here thinking how I can make it "feel" like Christmas.  Alyssa doesn't feel up to leaving the apartment yet, so no Christmas Eve service.  She can't eat anything that is not pureed or liquid, so no Christmas dinner or fun foods.  

And then it hit me....

....are these things REALLY what makes it feel like Christmas for me?


It doesn't matter where I am or what I am doing, on this day......Christ, my Savior, was still born.  On this day, I was given the BEST gift that I could ever receive.  On this day, Jesus gave up all the comforts of Heaven to take on the constraints of a human form....for me.....and you.  On this day, God  initiated the plan that would pay for MY sins and ultimately provide me with eternal life.  The plan that would provide me with HOPE and PEACE even a mist the troubles of life.

And though I will be missing these other "things" today, I will be rejoicing and celebrating and being forever grateful for this GIFT.  

34 years ago, I accepted this free gift.  
I realized I could not navigate this life on my own. 
I asked Jesus to forgive me for trying.
And I accepted the gift He held out to me....
I opened the door of my heart and asked Him to come in.
What a GREAT day that was!!

So, this morning I celebrate that GIFT.
Those other things, though wonderful, pale in comparison.

And I pray, as I type, that each of you that reads this can also celebrate the BEST GIFT you've ever been given.  And no matter what your circumstance is right now....maybe you've lost a job like us, or maybe you've lost a loved one or something else incredibly important to are celebrating because THIS GIFT can NEVER be taken away!!!  

And if you have never placed your faith in Jesus Christ.....won't you consider it now?
What better time?

And if you are unsure....won't you email me?
I would love to talk to you about it.
And share with you where my JOY and PEACE come from..

...and how you can have it too!

Merry Christmas friends!

Enjoy your celebrations, church services and family....but don't forget to celebrate the BEST gift...

...the birth of JESUS.