A week from today the movers will be here to pack and move us to Arizona. It is so hard to believe that it is here already! I have so many little details swimming around in my head...I'm just praying none of them fly out! :/
The details have been complicated and added to by the fact that our house is not sold yet.
I have been struggling with that a bit and in the last couple of days I have been on a war path of sorts to fix anything I can that would "help" my house sell...and it has been causing a lot of stress.
I had coffee with my bible study leader yesterday and she reminded me of our study of Malachi this spring and the main point God brought out to us......I am King, let me lead. It hit me like a 2x4...I had quit letting Him lead. I had taken the lead when I started down the mad path of trying to fix everything. Don't get me wrong, we need to do what we can to make our house presentable, but ultimately it is GOD who will sell our house, there is really not much I can do to make it sell. And HE had not led me to make those fixes...I was doing them on my own through stress and making everyone miserable around me.
I can't tell you the peace that came over me when I realized that and handed Him back the lead in my heart. My house is beautiful, some one will love it. I know He has the right family for this house, they are just not ready for it yet and in the mean time, He has provided all we need..even a way to move without it being sold.
He is a much better leader than I am, I wish I could remember that!
Then this morning, as I sat down for my quiet time, I start to feel panic come into my heart and even guilt. These were my thoughts......should I have chosen the house I did in Arizona? There was one that was cheaper...it was very small but it was cheaper. All these payments are piling on....it's my fault I chose that house. We are going to be in trouble. Maybe I can get out of purchasing this house. I should have done something sooner.
And then I opened up Jesus Calling to today's devotion and this is what I read...
"Remember that Satan is the accuser of believers. He delights in heaping guilt feelings upon you, especially when you are enjoying My Presence. when you feel Stan's arrows of accusation, you are probably on the right track. Use your shield of Faith to protect yourself from him. Talk with Me about what you are experiencing, and ask Me to show you the way forward"
The guilt I was feeling was unreasonable.
How amazing that God had those words for me today, at just the right time.
If He goes to that much detail to protect me from the enemy, how can I doubt He will not take care of this house and all aspects of this move. He has an amazing ministry waiting for us and work for us to do. the enemy knows that and he will try everything to distract me or emotionally wear me out so that I am not prepared for it.
So, today....once again...I left the house and the move in God's hands.
I feel so much better......