After 7 months, we finally have all our paper work completed and turned in to be foster parents. It really is amazing that what God put on my heart a year ago is finally coming to fruition.
and I'm scared.
We just have to schedule our home study, which will most likely happen in the next week or two and then have a final walk through. Then we will be considered "open" and ready to have a baby placed in our home or begin respite care.
and I'm not sure I'm ready for this.
The woman today told me to be prepared to get a call maybe even the hour after we are officially opened....there are so many babies to be placed.
and my heart is beating so fast.
We first thought we would only do respite care for foster families....there is a huge need. But over the year, God has grown our hearts to also consider the littlest ones. A baby cannot go to day care until they are 6 weeks old. So they have to be placed in a home with a stay-at-home mom. There aren't as many of those. We are going to be that in between stop....or atleast that is what we are thinking....God might have something else in mind.
and my heart is already breaking for the child(ren) I am going to love and then send on.
One of the books that I have been reading is called Anything: the prayer that unlocked by God and my soul. I've blogged about it before, but the questions that have stuck with me and played over and over in my head are.....What keeps me from praying "anything" to God? What is the worst thing you feel He could allow you to suffer?
a broken heart?
And yet, could I face anything worse than hanging on a cross and taking the sins of the world upon himself? He did that for me...why would I not be willing to suffer for Him? For something He has asked me to do?
I AM willing.
In my heart of hearts, I want God to be able to use me....for anything. I want to be available...even for the hard stuff....the stuff that hurts...the stuff that is not so pretty....the stuff I don't think I can handle..........the stuff that heals and loves and encourages and gives hope.
and I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.
What about you?
What is God calling you to?
What keeps you from praying "anything"?